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[24 Jan 2008|08:21pm]
i went to the makeshift memorial at the apartment today and left 2 white roses. it was touching to see, regardless of the fox newscaster practicing his "cause of death unknown.....pills strewn" nonsense in the background.
i still don't really know why i felt the need to pay tribute, but i'm glad i did.
so sad
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[22 Jan 2008|11:55pm]
I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you.
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.
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[16 Aug 2007|08:15pm]
http://www.theonion.com/content/news/fucking_yankees_reports_nation
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[06 Jul 2007|08:50pm]
is nicole richie really pregnant with joel's bastard child?
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attn: mollie murphy [19 Jun 2007|01:05pm]




is this the met you were talking about the other day? :)
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my last "real" entry was february 2nd [07 Jun 2007|04:21pm]
i think i'm going to do my internship with AHRC, specifically with preschool children with special needs

sometimes i miss boston so much it physically hurts

my gran would have been 85 tomorrow

i need a haircut

and a nap

how are things?
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yay [11 Mar 2007|11:21am]


have a nice day :)
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[02 Feb 2007|10:37pm]
does anyone have access to a time machine?

i mean i'm pretty happy with the direction of my life right now, but sometimes i wish i could do some temporary time travel back a few years to when the toughest decisions i made were between what flavor of pucker to buy for a 3 day weekend. this real life of psych reports, consultations, internships, weddings, reunions, questions, answers is all very overwhelming sometimes. and those are the sometimes when my time machine would come in handy. sometimes i'd go to skateandsurf, or a MEST show, and other times i'd go to a snowstorm in boston. or maybe i'd go play scrabble with my granny before she got so sick.

but i guess if life worked that way it'd be kind of pointless. the past wouldn't mean as much if you could always go back to it. but superficially, without getting existential, it'd be nice to have no real worries again, if only for a few days.

in other news, i've been having a reoccurring dream for the past several months where my teeth start falling out one by one. i also had a dream where i got engaged and married-to nobody. literally no one. i had the ring, put on the dress, got in a limo and everyone was crying but there was no groom! if someone with one of those dream books could help me out i'd be forever grateful and amused. google told me my teeth fall out because of a current huge life transition but right now all i have is too much homework.
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[06 Jan 2007|03:28am]
so what if it's freezing, i'm awake and i'm happy
the sun's steepling its shards on my floor
i drag my feet to the shower and i hear someone singing
i keep the lights off while the water gets warm
now i knot up my tie and toss books in a schoolbag
they keep my priorties straight
so i can sleepwalk through work like an outpatient program
i don't buy but get through anyway
and at some point i'll call you and tell you i miss you
and you are the point of my days
and my face will get flushed and my throat will choke up
when you tell me you that feel the same

so i have been thinking of splitting up Christmas
to see everyone i'd like to see
and your're first on that list
you're the lotto i hit
you're the star at the top of the tree

and i have been feeling this good for a reason
my friends and my family
you are all my backbone
you keep me balanced and settled
and i'm in debt to you all endlessly

so tonight i will call you and try to say thank you
for being the sun on my face
i know the world's almost over but you make it seem better
and i hope for you i do the same
do you have the time?

ayyyyyyyyy! [26 Dec 2006|10:54pm]
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[27 Nov 2006|04:29am]
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[25 Oct 2006|09:12pm]
have you ever been on the subway platform and heard the announcement "the 1 going downtown is delayed due to a sick passenger on the train"?

that passenger was me today. i gave blood at work and proceeded to FAINT and black out on the subway. this was my third time giving blood and i've never had any problems whatsoever! i ate breakfast and lunch, stayed after i was done and ate plenty of rice krispie treats and cookies with my feet planted on the floor, put my free donor pin on my bag, etc.

so i got on the train and started feeling a little woozy about 3 stops in. next thing i know im opening my eyes and im on the floor of the train surrounded by people. it was the most surreal experience ever. i remember waking up and having no idea where i was. i was going through my head "i'm not at school, i'm not home, im not at work..." for a good 2 minutes i had to just lay there to get my composure and figure out what was going on. some nice girl helped me up and off the train and started asking me questions to make sure i was feeling better. then she said to me "i saw your face go pale then looked at the pin on your bag and knew you had given blood and were about to faint."
soon after i was surrounded by EMS and cops asking me questions. once i explained that i had just given blood, people calmed down. i had to give all my info to the cops and EMS so they had proof that i refused hospitalization.

beat THAT for a story! i bet all those people went home and told it at the dinner table. but to be the bitch that keeled over, i dont think i can ever top this.
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PSA [25 Sep 2006|02:55pm]
Thursday, October 5th
CBGB

THE PIETASTERS
BIG D AND THE KIDS TABLE
LOST CITY ANGELS
THE SPECS
TRI STATE CONSPIRACY

i think im gonna go to this because i havent seen big d since i graduated last year. this is a PSA to all who live in the vicinity that you are more than welcome to join me. it's listed as the "last ska show at cbgb" so get your skankin' in while you can.
any takers?
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[05 Sep 2006|01:34pm]
for the past few weeks i've been unemployed for the first time since i was 15. it's been relaxing, yet distressing all at once. howwwwwever, i just got a call from the job that i most wanted and i start monday! it's part-time, i'm going to be covering teachers' lunch hours so they can take breaks while the kids eat lunch/nap. it's $12.00 an hour, which is perfect because it's more than i'm used to but it's part-time. i also have the opportunity for extra hours through their after school program.
http://www.bankstreet.edu/sfc/index.html
it's a private school attached to bank street's graduate school of education. 1/3 of the children receive some kind of special services daily and there is a school psychologist on staff, so it's going to be an excellent learning experience.

i feel like no one uses livejournal a lot anymore, myself included, but im pretty excited so i figured i'd document it for the masses.




and here's a treat:
http://www.yousendit.com/transfer.php?action=download&ufid=693101777F33580A

and how good is JT's new shit? so good.
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[29 Aug 2006|11:38pm]
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[14 Aug 2006|07:06pm]
wow so deirdre is the only person on livejournal who has a cell phone? i'm impressed!
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i don't like people playin on my phone! [10 Aug 2006|10:52pm]
who has verizon?
if you do, what kind of plan do you have and how much does your bill usually come to? my contract with the devil/cingular is over on september first and i want to switch.

even if you don't have verizon, tell me what you do have and what you think of it, including prices and what you get for said prices.
i want the cheapest camera phone available if that helps any.

thanks bitches!
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[04 Aug 2006|12:40am]
the only thing better than seeing muse is seeing muse with amanda while david bowie watches from the balcony above your head.

new job interview tomorrow, then taking action in a tent at warped tour saturday. if you're going, come say hello to us, we'll be the ones with the prizes.

seriously, david bowie? that is a pretty good sign that your band is legitimately good.
do you have the time?

[13 Jun 2006|11:12pm]
i'm going to fail my summer courses and the only person i can blame is myself




















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and major league baseball
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[29 May 2006|06:42pm]
after seeing his house and grounds this weekend, i am even more enamoured with my birthday partner thomas jefferson. to walk where he walked, see the tables where he invented contraptions, his books, his plantations (walking through, i wondered where he first saw sally). and then full circle, we went to the national archives to see the declaration of independence which he brought to hancock.
i think sometimes we detach ourselves from the past so much so that we don't realize that these incredible historical figures resided in these places hundreds of years before. TJ's HOUSE! it doesn't get much cooler than that!

although i could do without the allergy/cold attack at 10,000 feet. my head feels like it's going to explode.

and how are you?
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